I like to think of myself as a person who can accomplish a lot. In fact, for good or bad, that’s been a source of pride for me for most of my life. I can accomplish a lot in a short period of time. I can focus on a task, and really push it through…’til it’s done. The problem is, when I’m not pouring into my “tank,” (read: spend enough time in prayer and in God’s word) then my ability ‘do my thing’ in a way that is a blessing to those around me…suffers. I become short, inattentive, curt…in summary, kind of a pain in the neck.
I like to think of myself as being a mature guy, but when I’m running on fumes, my inner two-year-old comes out, and I have no ability to masque my selfishness, my pride, and my arrogance. It’s kind of a sad picture.
I ran across a Psalm again today that I’ve heard may times before; “Unless the LORD builds the house, the builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain.” [Ps 127:1] A necessary reminder that my own plans, SUFFER for lack of understanding. I simply don’t have the wisdom to know all the variables in the equation. But, if I give myself, my time, my attitudes and actions over the LORD, HE can build beautiful things out of the torn fragments of my life.